Are you thinking about suicide?

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By HattieMattieMae

If you are thinking about suicide please stop!

Tonight a friend came to me asking if there was someone who could talk to someone thinking about suicide online. This happen to be me, and fortunately his friend had already went offline. I understood the seriousness of this so I am asking you if you are thinking about doing this, put this thought down for just a second.

I am sorry to say that we live in a world that doesn't unconditionally love us, and never loved you the way God intended for us to be loved. I know at this moment in your life you are bruised, beaten up, and can't take it anymore. You may have lost someone to death that you really loved, or that was important in your life. You may not have anyone in your life as a support team like friends and family. You may be all alone and all you have is yourself and your negative emotions and beliefs about yourself, your life,and the world. You may have thought you failed at everything, or lost everything from foreclosure, or lost everything you've owned. You may have lost your boyfriend, girlfriend, husband, or wife. You may have lost your job, and have no finances. You may be sitting in a homeless shelter, or no place to go.

Your world may have collapsed from more than one of these things happening at a time, and it seems very overwhelming, and that there are so many obstacles in your path, and you can't breathe, and you can't move, and you don't want to do anything, or get out of bed, or not be around anyone. You may feel no one wants to listen to you, or no one cares.

The truth is your life is worth more than any person, and although life may be hard in the moment it is only a temporary moment in time. All the thoughts you believe that are negative about yourself are lies and illusions. You are talented, you are loved, you have a lot of experience, and you are worthy. You just have to dig with in yourself to understand you don't need a world, or friend, or family member to tell you this. You need to believe it about yourself.

Please write your thoughts and feelings out in a journal, write your story out, and go through the feelings, validate them, grieve over them. Understand that it is a part of who you are in the moment. Understand that tomorrow is a new day, and a new beginning. Do not be afraid! Face the fears in your life, and have confidence in yourself that you can live a better life and way.

Find your own beauty or masculinity in yourself, if you are an artist that paint or draw your feelings and emotions out, if you are a musician play those songs, or write lyrics. If you are writer than write your heart out. Just let it come out of you, instead of holding it in.

Set some goals for your life. What have you always wanted to do since you were a child? What did you dream of becoming, what did you stop doing that you quit doing that you really enjoyed.

Find a group or class to go to in your community that interests you whether it be a support group, writing group, art group, theatre, bible study, or many other forms of groups, and sports. Get involved in your community. Find something you stand for and believe in, what you are passionate about. Make those dreams come true.

Learn who you are, and what you are capable of, find the strength and personal power with in yourself, and when you move, move, move, and move, you start living again.

If the people that surround your life in the moment aren't working for you, than find new friends, and if your family don't support you, or not there for you than make your own path, and go down a new road, and discover new places in the world.

Detach yourself from the negative things in the world, and go towards the positive. I bet you will find at least one person that will believe in who you are, and that will be a mentor in your life to guide you in the right place you need to be in the moment.

If you think you are a failure, learn that some of the greatest leaders in the world will failures. Failures made them a success. Abraham Lincoln was one of them. Eminem another. Liz Murray was another. Watch the movie Homeless to Harvard. It's her life story and how she overcame her obstacles. Find many more life stories that were successes, and believe that you can do the same for yourself.

Never let anyone tell you, you are wrong being you. You may have the wrong thoughts, or beliefs in the moment, but they can be changed with in time. Find some inspirational quotes and motivational quotes to read every day.

Life will change day by day, and it will get better. You have to just believe in yourself. If you believe in God, than pick up a self help book at a christian book store, or ask another christian what has helped them if you have gone to church, or if you know someone that is a counselor, or librarian, they can guide you to some as well.

Always go see a physician to understand what is going wrong with your body, many things can cause depression. Sometimes it can be just grief from losses.

See some kind of counselor that is a professional like a psychiatrist, psychologist, Priest, Minister, Pastor, Sister.

There are many types of Counselors out there, and if you don't feel comfortable with one you have the option to choose another one that works for you, or that fits your beliefs, faith, and religion.

If you feel suicidal than tell some one. If you feel no one will help you in around you, than go to the hospital yourself and tell them how you feel. They will only evaluate you, and probably recommend a doctor or psychologist in your community that will see you. They will not lock you up, or throw away the key. They will just ask you a few questions and determine how they can help you and refer you.

Never be ashamed to admit you are not feeling well. It is all about what you are focusing on in the minute. If you focus on something positive, or read a book, or movie, or affirmation, prayer, or some kind of exercise or sport, your mind will go in a different direction.

Do not dwell on your problems they will just seem very big and huge, but their really not as big as you may think. There is nothing you can't handle!

There are countless things you can do for yourself to make yourself feel better. Be creative with your life. Create it the way you would like your life to be. Look at yourself from a new perspective. See yourself through God's eyes for once in your life and know you are unconditionally loved no matter what you've done wrong or right. There is no mistake that is to big for God to forgive you for.

God is a mighty God, and he will answer you, he does hear you, and although you may think that he's not he is, and it doesn't matter where you are in the moment. God will bring you out of it. He will place people in your life that love you unconditionally and that will support your dreams and goals.

You have every right to live and be a part of this world. You have every right to be loved, in fact you were born to be loved. Start a new life today, and a new beginning, leave your past behind you. Like Byron Katie, states in her teachings, "Who would you be without your story?" If none of those bad things happened in your life, and you let go of them, who would you be?

That story does not determine who you are, or who you shall be. You're life is worthy and beautiful and you have so much to share in this world with others, you have a voice to speak, and a song to sing of all your own. You were beautifully and wonderfully made just as you are. Doesn't matter what country you live in, what race you are, what religion, or faith you are. It doesn't matter whether you are gay or straight. It doesn't matter what the world says, or the people around you say. It is the fact that God created your life, and made you exactly the way he did. No one can tell you that God was wrong when he created who you are.

So if you are thinking about suicide it's not worth it. All you can do is end up being a vegetable in a nursing home, because you failed at the attempt, or messing your body up with scars, or losing your life. Life does get better as long as you breathe!

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sharewhatuknow Level 4 Commenter 8 months ago

You wrote a beautiful hub here, but, sometimes a person can get to such a point in their life that they don't care about who loves them, when they will find love, their worth, who they can become, etc...

I know from experience. None of this mattered to me after I lost my 22-year-old son from a drug overdose of methadone. I seriously considered taking my life. The loss was really hard to bear. It mattered not that I had a loving husband, my mother, my siblings, my daughters, supportive co-workers, a great job with excellent benefits, etc... I just wanted my pain to end.

However, I knew that to take my life was murder and that this would cause much more stress to my family who were already stressed out enough over the death of my son. For me to do this would have been selfishness on steroids.

Three years later the death of my son is still very sad for me, and I miss him so much, but I now realize that I can go on and continue to lead a constuctive life. Or, perhaps God has done this for me.

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HattieMattieMae Hub Author 8 months ago

Yes for most they have a one track mind, and it is a very difficult place to be at the moment. Every person is different with different obstacles, burdens, and stresses. Each one will handle it differently, and see things differently.Grief is very dark its self and of course can cause depression in losing a loved one. It is unbearable, and maybe the more important thing is that even though it is still painful to lose your son, you found your way out of the darkness. How you got there doesn't really matter, but that you survived it. :)

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iwansaptiko 8 months ago

You are absolutely correct, sharewhatuknow! I've also been in a situation like you. I lost my job, I was imprisoned, and had a lot of debt. I had a wife and five children to feed. I was lucky because I can still think of them, who gives me the strength to continued my life. My wife was very wonderful, she realized that I need more support from her and kids. My Sister and My Father also did everything to comfort me.

How could I hurt those wonderful people who need me to stay alive. I was lucky, I am still lucky to have them.

Thanks for Hattie and sharewhatuknow. it is Beautiful.

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HattieMattieMae Hub Author 8 months ago

Thank you iwansaptiko and being honest, and sharing! Glad you had such a supporting team to help you. Wonderful thing to know that some get the support and help they deserve. :)

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Kenna Kane 2 months ago

For the first time ever, the thought of suicide crossed my mind because my husband was extremely mentally and physically abusive. I have 2 children and my husband would call me names and was very controlling. When I kicked him out, he used every email, text and personal struggles I was going through and broadcasted them to the world. I lost custody of my son to him because he lied about why he got kicked out, made me out to be a complete drug addict and told my ex-husband everything, whom then also took custody of my oldest child. The Only thing I was good at was being a mom. I don't believe I will ever commit suicide but that overwhelming feeling of hopelessness refuses to cease. I'm finding comfort in reading hubs like this . Thank you

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HattieMattieMae Hub Author 2 months ago

Kennae Kane, I'm with you, it's a hard place to be. Hold on and have faith in God! His love never fails! :)

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